Through topics I chose to write about, I'm learning facets of myself I never realized existed.
I blog because I think I'm funny...OK....sometimes I'm funny.
I blog because I think I can share some knowledge I've gained.
I can't think of one post I've blogged that hasn't taught me something.
BUT the biggest reason is only just being revealed to me.
I'm beginning to realize blogging is more for me and less about the goings on in my life.
Do I want others to enjoy what I write? Yes, Oh yes, with all my heart!
Do I want others to enjoy my posts so much that they chose to 'sign up'? Oh, that would be lovely.
Can it be discouraging day after day seeing no comments, no followers? Yes it can be.
Do I blog because I want to meet people who are like minded? Absolutely!
However, amid all these things, the bigger picture seems to be that right now blogging is teaching me about me!
ღ I blog from my heart.
If something catches or touches my heart, I blog about it. My heart is full of all sorts of things, both positive and negative, so I write about them all. I believe hurts and sadness are just as important as happy and peaceful. Each of them helps my heart to grow and change in ways I never imagined possible.
ღ I love to write & I love to read
To start blogging simply made sense in my mind. I've blogged prior to this. I created several blogs for classes during both undergrad and graduate school, but let them fall by the wayside. I just didn't keep up with any of them. They just weren't, well, me. Okay, they were me in that I was writing and creating them, but they just didn't seem to be what I was looking for in a blog. Cinderella's glass slipper just didn't fit. Try as I might, I just couldn't make those blogs fit who I was.
ღ I need a place where my thoughts can escape.
Blogging allows me to think out loud. Perhaps it is something others will relate to, perhaps it's not, either way, I'm okay. I think this goes along with blogging from the heart because I have both positive and negative thoughts that run through my mind and getting them out of my head and onto the page helps me see a bigger picture. Blogging helps me focus less on my immediate feelings and thoughts and allows me to stretch beyond myself.
ღ Blogging is encouraging me to spend more time with God
I pray before I blog, seeking guidance from Him. He always seems to lead me to His word. I have been in my Bible more since I started blogging than in any other time in my life. I've explored more ways to grow and improve myself based on what God's word says than ever before. Blogging calms my spirit and allows me to relate to God in ways I never dreamed of. I seem to always be asking God to show me what He needs to say. To write through me.
ღ I'm learning to listen for God through my posts
Most times I'm thinking to myself, God needs someone else to hear what I have to say, but I always end up realizing it was ME who needed to hear what He had to say. Each post seems to bring me a new understanding of myself, my life, and where everything melds together under God's greater design. Do I understand everything that happens in my life? Not at all. I'm encouraged more and more though. Encouraged by the thought that through me, my writing and my blogging, God seems to be speaking to me about me.
ღ I'm learning to grow and change into the person God sees, not who I see
Blogging ideas tend to come easily to me. I think it's simply conducive to my life. There are lots of little fleeting things that come and go but bigger ideas, bigger problems tend to run throughout every aspect of my life. If one area of my life is touched by miscommunication, then other areas tend to follow suit. Through blogging I'm learning and researching new ways think and do things. To change and grow. To see where I am responsible for certain difficulties and want to change and be different. Every post shows me a new possibility in making myself a better wife, a better mom and just a better well rounded child of God. My new motto has become "here I grow again".
ღ I need to blog
Blogging isn't just a hobby for me. It's a life line. A life line between the me I am right now and the me God needs and wants me to be tomorrow. It's wanting to share with others, but finding out that somewhere in each post I'm learning something of great value about myself. Blogging is about the happy, the sad, the funny, the mundane and everything in between. Most of all, blogging is about knowing there is possibilities for more than what is right now in this moment.
When you visit Essence of a Family, I hope you see something you can take with you,that adds value to your life, but more importantly, I hope you see that I am taking things with me and adding value to my life as well.
Learning to walk by Faith,